Enduring Suffering
Enduring suffering has been part of life’s journey which serves as a catalyst for awakening. As I reflect upon my own experiences and purpose, I invite you to explore my YouTube channel, where I delve into mystical encounters, past life regression, awakening journeys, scripture, manifesting, and more. Initially, I focused on overcoming anxiety and depression, but my path took a profound turn after my awakening experience.
Being an old soul, I have embarked on numerous incarnations, and although I won’t delve deeply into past life regression today, I’ve started to remember fragments of those past experiences. This process of awakening and remembrance is referenced in various scriptures. From my earliest videos and blog posts to the present, the evolution of my purpose is evident. What began as a mission to overcome personal struggles transformed into sharing my awakening journey. Now, I possess a profound understanding of my true self and my purpose, representing a captivating and unexpected progression. Enduring suffering as I did all makes sense now.
In this post, which corresponds to a recent podcast episode, I want to address those who are currently facing challenging circumstances. Whether you are grappling with anxiety, depression, or simply going through a tough phase, know that you have the power to change your circumstances. Even if you have experienced an awakening but find yourself in the early stages of confusion, remember that this state is temporary. It’s common to have unrealistic expectations, hoping for instant bliss and ease during the awakening process. However, patience, self-compassion, and forgiveness are crucial during this transformative journey, both toward yourself and others.
Healing Past Wounds
Allow me to address a few key points. Over the past few days, I’ve experienced an unprecedented level of physical exhaustion, coupled with deep peace and neutrality. Reflecting on my identity as an old soul and a lightworker, I’ve come to recognize that this exhaustion stems from the release of deeply ingrained beliefs. Early on, I felt a profound sense of not belonging, existing as a philosophical and misunderstood soul. This sense of displacement was intensified by periods of anxiety, depression, poverty, and various forms of abuse. At the time, I couldn’t comprehend the reasons behind these struggles. My stepfather’s frequent labeling of me as “crazy” further complicated matters. Nonetheless, an inner knowing, an awareness of a higher purpose, kept me going. It took 47 years before I began unraveling the answers. Looking back, I understand the purpose behind my trials, poverty, and the complexities of my parents. Now, all the pieces of my life are finally falling into place, and everything makes sense.
To those of you currently facing difficulties, and feeling like life is happening to you, I want to remind you that you are destined for something greater. Your current circumstances do not define your entire existence. Do not lose hope. During my younger years and well into my thirties, I often wrestled with suicidal thoughts. Despite the hardships, I clung to the belief that there was something more I couldn’t give up on. If you find yourself going through similar struggles, remember that you are not meant to stay where you are. Make a conscious choice to move forward and persevere. Although I cannot provide a specific timeframe for your journey, I urge you to never give up.
There are various manifesting techniques available to aid you, such as affirmations, journaling, and meditation. But first and foremost, you must want to overcome your current situation and be prepared to endure the difficulties that come with shedding old beliefs and confronting societal conditioning. As you awaken, you ascend to higher states of consciousness, and although the process is not all bliss, it is well worth it at the end of the journey, when you awaken to the truth of who you are.